Be With You

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Hi all! Welcome to the third month of 2020. Hope that all of you stay good in the midst of the chaos in the world currently.

Someone asked me about when I planned to write a new page in the blog? Here I am writing it :)
It's 3:45 am. I cannot fall asleep so that I'm playing song to help me sleep faster. This song came up during last week during my random youtube play. This month, our church has a fasting prayer movement. In weekdays, I usually take my fasting prayer in the afternoon as I will have lunch break that I can use to pray. This song appeared during this lunch break period. I believe that this is a very popular song that you have ever heard before. "Be With You" (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EGQpm3i3mXw)

I heard this before, yet it's my first time to really realize the words composed in this song. I started to relate this song for myself and I believe that it's not a coincidence that this song appeared. Last week, I heard something big from my mom. She suddenly brought up my childhood time. There's an evening when she would like to take a bath. I was a baby. She left me with the nanny. During taking a bath, she suddenly heard me crying so loud. Found out that I fell down in the stairs. The nanny was watching TV so that I was out of the sight. My mom was so shocked. It's her baby rolled down from the stairs. She said that it's only by God's protection that nothing wrong went to me, not physically or mentally. I joked with her, probably that made me smarter and stronger :D She added, "If you live by now, it's a must to live for Him." I just knew that I once faced a big accident. So that, this song came up in the good time.

Lyric:
Savior of my soul. I confide in You through all my darkest moment. In You I find my peace. My comfort when I'm weak. I trust in You, through storm and raging sea.

Faithful, You're my God. You're the Glory and the Lifter of my head. Your light it fills my days. I leads me in Your ways. Forever, I surrender all to You. 

And I live to worship You. My Jesus, You're the only one for me. Nothing will ever take Your place, my precious Savior. Who can stand between my Lord and me?

Lord I live to honor You and I long to bring my life an offering. Take me higher. Draw me deeper. I give all to be with You.
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He saved me from the death. Give me a blessed life on. He's there in my every moment. Through my childhood and teens life. Though there're times that I felt not be a good daughter, I put other things in front of Him. Yet, He always has a way to draw me back and closer. Through processes I faced, I grew more faithful to Him. I grew not to be scared. Day by day will be more challenging. But, one thing is sure, He's my Heavenly Father. I'll keep learning in many areas I'm still lacking. I would like to give my life as an offering. I have Him as my hope!

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Before coming to Taiwan, I left my ministry in youth service for some years. It’s not a decision you can follow. I was too busy for my school life and my work life as I moved to other city and It's hard to come back to my hometown for some church activities. My time was used for mostly other activities, than for Him. But, He never leaves me even a second. I respected my friends who can fulfill the times and responsibility in the ministry through they were also busy. It's a miracle if He brought me to Taiwan. It's a country that I never thought I will live there. It's a church around 1 hour taking a bus from my school. In my first Sunday ever in Taiwan, my friend took me and another friend to this church. This church is not as big as churches in Indonesia. I felt welcomed and the feeling of coming back. At first, I said to my friend that Saturday will be my day to hang out or travelling. I did not know how the process was, but I finally gave my Saturday time joining the small group sharing in the church. Thank you for friends who welcomed me warmly, you are one of the reason I am today, what you’ve done help to bring back this lost soul :) Then, I started to join the prayer meeting. In a meeting, someone asked me about something, I forgot what was the question. I only said that I felt like being becoming in the Prodigal Son Parable. I was so happy that I could come back to get closer to Him, serve Him. Feels like, it's really a way so that I can come back. He taught me many things during my lone staying in Taiwan and His helps were never late and even more than what I expected. He gave in perfect timing. My homework is to keep learning from Him so that my live can become a living testimony for others. Wanting I become smaller and He'll be bigger in me. I tell myself: Even in the lowest point of life, don't give up because He doesn't give up in me, so in you!

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This week, there're 2 friends asked me how can I worked in the company for quite some times? I believed that these 2 friends question are not coincidence! It somehow encouraged me and made that song is alive in my life even more. One thing that I realized that it's all because of His mercy. This work is a part of my daily life. I learn on how to grow in this work. Be grateful for the chance I still have to serve in this work. When I face hurdles, try to do what I can do and He'll make a way when it seems to be no way. I have Him.

I'll close this page with Bible verses. I put this one in my office desk to remind me everytime I feel weak :)

Isaiah 40:29 He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.

If you would like to continue (30-31): Even youths grow tired and weary and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

I am thankful for having Him as my God, He the one who saved me!

Thank you for your time reading this page. Sorry if this is unnecessary to you haha I just want to share~ Sharing is caring. GB

Let's keep moving readers!



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