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| i miss You |
Today is 7th of
February 2012. I woke up like what usually I wake up. In the morning, I went to
campus to have a meeting about an event. The event is called Go Ship
Competition. The meeting is over at
noon. Then I have chit chat with my friend, and at 1 pm I go to the
administration room to draw money. As you know that I join the field study
organization, HMTI, and we plan to have
a visit to an orphan house. Then I went back to my room.
I tried to take a nap, but I can’t.
So, I only laid on my bad while trying to close my eye. But, I started to have
a thought of the event we’re going to hold. I got an idea about the place of
the event. Such in a sudden, I got that idea and I share it with the leader of
the event. After that, I tried to close my eyes again, but I failed. I have a
thought about visiting the orphan house. I thought about how many children are
there, how they have lived, how’s their relationship with God, what should I
share with them, how can we support them? And I imagined what will the event be.
And in a sudden, I started to burst of tears.
I was so shocked, then I got up. And something inside me started to worship the
Lord. I started to praise and worship. I sang my favorite worshiping song
“Hallelujah 16x” and “Tinggikan diriMu”. I don’t know what’s going on here. It
might be my soul misses my Lord so much. Recently, I wasn’t doing my routine to
have a worshipping time. I miss my Lord so much and I know that He miss me more
than everything.
I’m sorry Lord, I haven’t been a
good child. I’m sory for
often disappoint
You.
often take You
as the second.
Being too focus
on my physical life.
You know how I really miss our
time together, my Best Friend. I’m sorry for everything bad I have done. I’m so
thankful for
Still
loving me
Still
takes care of me
Wait
me
Bless
me with your unconditional love
You are my savior! My Father! My
best friend! My strength! I love You.
With love, Yohana Stephanie
