the thought

God sincerely loves us

When I'm doing nothing, the thought comes to my mind is about who am I actually? What do I live for? How great is God who creates everything in this world.. The abstract thoughts are just passing by and sometimes they disturb me. I have faith in Jesus. I have lived for 18 years and I am still not sure for what I have lived for, what are my dreams? what will my future be? who will I marry with? how's my live in my old days? I have never imagined about all the abstract things like those. But for sure, I am really sure that my future will be just perfect as God's make my life story so beautiful. 

For all of us, God has sent His Son to redeem us from our dirty sins. He is so great and kind and amazing till there are no better words to describe how I really appreciate Him. If you are confused and not sure about your life, you'll better lay all of your fears into God's hands. It doesn't mean that you will be free from your responsibility in life, but it means that we can't do everything because we have limited ability and we need someone who is much better then us, God. 

I am not perfect. I am lack in many things. What I need to support myself is be thankful with what I have had. I am grateful to be given this kind of life, with this family, friends, home, education, problems, characteristics, thoughts and so on. Long time ago,  I envied on a person who was much better than me, where he could do things I really wanted to do, but I couldn't. As I saw people around me, I analyze and I know what kind of person they are and what can they do. There are some of them who have more ability than I have, but some of them have less than mine. Just like what is stated on my holy bible that there were a person who are given 5 talents, and another got 1 talent. God give each person different talents as He knows how far we can make our talents developed. I open my mind, and I'm not jealous anymore with those who have more talents than I have. I accept that everyone has their own capacity for their talents. But until now, I am curious what are my talents???? can anyone tell me? I don't know! That makes me depressed as I haven't known what special skills God has given to me? How can I developed my given talents if I don't know what my talents are. Can anybody help me to find this out? I've ever do a physiological test and the result is just strange and I'm sure the result is a big FALSE! 

Just like a kid who is lost in a crowded street, there I am. Sometimes I feel lonely in the crowded area. None of my friends has already go deep in my heart, except God. When you are lonely, don't ever felt like there is nobody cares us, God is always there beside us, keeps controlling our condition. He provides his shoulder as a place to cry, he provides His ears to hear what we feel, deeply, He provides His heart to love us every-time without any charge. I really want to share so much thing here, but I don't know how to start. I just wanna say to all of you that : GOD IS ALWAYS BESIDES US EVERYTIME, SO DON'T FEEL WORRY ABOUT ANYTHING. WHEN YOU HAVE A LOT OF BURDENS, JUST LIFT YOUR HEAD UP A LITTLE, BECAUSE IT IS WHEN GOD IS THE CLOSEST TO YOU :)

for ending my thread, I'll write dong a famous song, 

You Raise Me Up- Josh Groban

When I am down and oh my soul so weary

When troubles come and my heart burdened be

Then, I am still and wait here in the silence

Until You come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains

You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas

I am strong, when I am on Your shoulders

You raise me up... To more than I can be.

There is no life - no life without its hunger

Each restless heart beats so imperfectly

But when you come and I am filled with wonder

Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;

You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;

I am strong, when I am on Your shoulders;

You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up... To more than I can be. 

Jesus is alright with me <3 Blessing :)

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